Yesterday was my appointment for more diagnostic testing concerning my abnormal mammogram. At my appointment, the first thing that I had to do was undress and wait in the little waiting room. They called me back and gave me a more diagnostic mammogram. She took a lot of pictures of my left breast and it seemed like she was having trouble finding the mass. This made me think that maybe I would have the same thing happen to me as happened to my mother the previous day in her appointment for more testing from her abnormal mammogram. They took picks of her and then came out and said whatever the first mammogram found the week before was not there anymore. But instead another woman came and had me follow her to do an ultrasound. The screen was turned so that I could see it. As she rolled the thing around I could feel that it hurt in a certain place. I looked at the screen and I saw the mass! It was black and round. A little bit larger that a quarter in size. My heart sank. She finished up and ask me to wait right outside.
Finally another woman came up and asked me to go to her office. The sign said “Counseling room”. I was so nervous and thought I would cry. She asked me how I was and I answered with “very nervous right now”. Then she looked back at me while we were entering the room and winked at me and said “you’re fine!”. I finally could breath! She told me that the mass was just a cyst in my breast and that it will dissolve on its own eventually. Yay!!!
Well, I got a call from Linda, the woman who did my mammogram the other day. It was not good news. She said that the Doctor found an asymmetrical dense mass in my left breast. Now, I researched it and this could be a lot of things. One thing in particular is that since am one HRT, the progesterone has a side effect of causing tender breasts and dense spots. My breasts have been tender since I started on those pills. So, I am hoping that this is the only problem. It seemed to say in the places I read, that having these dense spots made the chances of breast cancer greater. But I could have misread it. Any who, I will update after I have more tests done on October 17th.
Wednesday, I had my second ever mammogram. I had my first one at around age 40. Now 6 years later, they unfortunately aren’t much different. At least where I went. It was noticeable less uncomfortable however, that the previous one.
I mentioned to the tech doing it that it would seem that after all this time and with such progression in science and technology, they could have come up with something less intrusive. I mean we can have our whole body MRI’d and find so many things. Why still the boob crush to see inside better? She informed me that there were some great improvement coming soon.
I am not sure how often the medical field recommends having mammograms. I know that I had a really health conscious aunt who ate really healthy, kept up on her vitamins and did all the right things. She and my uncle made it a lifestyle to keep everything checked up and religiously kept up and maintained yearly screening.
My aunt got regula yearly mammograms for thirty years straight. She didn’t smoke, take birth control, drink, or do anything that would have made her a candidate for breast cancer. But in fact the cancer did come on her quite swiftly. She had them removed but by that time cancer had spread in to her bones and other organs. She had an awful last couple of years. She died not more than a year ago.
This was a shock to the family knowing how health conscious she had always stayed. The question some of us had been did she have too many scans? 30 mammograms in her life? Was that too much? I am sure we will never know for sure.
I am the kind of person who tends to do things in moderation. So, I have decided at this point, that I will have a mammogram every five years. That is of course if my mammogram from the other day comes back clear.
I had my follow-up appointment with Dr. Preston, my gyn, yesterday. She said that she could tell a big difference in my mood and how much happier I seemed. It is true. The hormones have affected my mood in a really positive way. I am not miserable anymore. I only have a hot flash every once in a great while. But when I do have one, it is pretty bad. But over all, I have been sleeping better, feeling more healthy and “normal” since starting on the Progesterone pills and the Vivelle Dots of Estrogen.
I told her that the Progesterone pills that I was to take for the first 10 days of the month really helped me with my energy and my motivation. She said that most women complain that it makes them too sleepy. lol, it is the opposite for me.
She and I decided that I would start taking it all month instead of the ten days. But it would be only 100 mgs instead of 200 mgs. I asked her if she thought that I was really in menopause and sh looked at me strange and said “yeah, you are well into it and I think that by the beginning of next year, you can say that you have completed menopause. That will make it a full year without a cycle. She said the spotting at the first couple of months didn’t count.
But I asked how long then would I have to stay on the hormones, and she said that I could decide that for myself. She said that after a year, if I wanted, I could go off of them and just see how well I did. But if I felt like my hormones hadn’t straightened out I could just start them again.
I do not want to stay on them any longer than need be for sure. I don’t want to be at risk anymore than I probably am now. I also scheduled a mammogram for next week. I haven’t had one of them in quite a while. I was telling her that I don’t understand why that with all of the technology of today with the MRI’s and ways to look inside the body, that we still had to have our boobs smashed together so badly for the mammogram to work lol. She says that is something that will be coming a long soon!
I am trying to figure out if my really bad sort memory loss from aging or from having taken so many psychological medications. It’s so bad my dog has to get my attention and point out that I have water boiling over on the stove. lol
I can watch reruns of my favorite shows over and over and I swear they seem brand new to me. Usually one scene will jog my memory that I had seen it. But I still watch because I have no idea what happened and how it ends.
I loved “House” and now it is over. It is kind of nice to watch the reruns and feel like they are brand new episodes lol.
The other day my mother mentioned that we used to have another Lab and that he was a black lab. I thought she was crazy! If I had a dog like that then I sure wouldn’t totally forget it existed! But slowly I remembered bits and pieces about how we gave her to some friends and I remembered his name but I still do not remember a single thing about him actually living here.
It is really kind of scary. I have to laugh about it to keep from weirding out over it. It’s getting to where I can’t remember things about my kids growing up. I hate it when they start talking about something from childhood and I don’t have a clue. I will ask “where was I then?” and they laugh and tell me I was right there lol.
If it is just from past medications, I hope it goes back to normal. If it is just part of aging, then I am in trouble!
Well now that I have gotten well into my hormone therapy, I find that it has made me a new person! I use an estrogen patch every day (change it every 31/2 days. Also I started my Progesterone pills (200 mgs a day for first 10 days of the month) and I really like the way I feel while I take them. I haven’t even spotted since a few times right after the Endometrial Ablation. Looking back, I realize I was trying to stop having periods since January . Well last summer remember I started noticing a bigger and bigger stretch of time between periods. Also I felt young and better than I had felt in so long. Then Starting in December, I began heavy bleeding for like two weeks on and two weeks off, the second week off was PMS for the next week. That went on into January of 2012. Early February I saw the gyn. Which I had stopped bleeding at the point of the visit, but thought it would come back again soon. They gave me the depo provera shot. Even though I didn’t need birth control because it is supposed to keep you from bleeding for about three months. Firstly, it made me start gaining weight instantly. Instead if it keeping me from bleeding for 3 months, I started spotting at 6 weeks on it. Now the bleeding in the winter and the spotting thereafter was accompanied by severe pain. More pain than I had ever encountered in all my years of periods. I went back to the gyno and we decided to do the Ablation. By the time the day of the procedure came along, I wasn’t even spotting anymore, but my pain was awful. I felt like my uterus and all down my legs were under a tremendous amount of pressure. I thought maybe it was my bladder though. However, after the Ablation, all that pressure went away. It affected my bowls and my ability to empty my bladder completely finally.
After that, the only thing I noticed was that my hot flashes, mood swings, sensitivity, fatigue and just not feeling right was getting really bad. So, that is where the hormone therapy came in. So, I haven’t even spotted since a while before the Ablation, and I haven’t bled since End of January. Was I on my way into menopause all this time?